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What do you guys think, I am a 41 year old man, that grew up in a very strict household, as a child i was raped many times, by different men one being a priest, because I
was an alterboy, so I thought I was serving GoD. But by my teens, I was sleeping with women, just because they wanted me. I tried for years to be straight, it was expected of me to get married, I was 31
when I got engaged to Rhonda. I really did care for her, but the closer to our wedding, the more terrified I became, see I had blamed my childhood for being gay, and was in denial, I was so gay, it was
pathetic. I then met Ron, he was a very sexy hot, and very intelligent italian man. I fell in love. Once my family found out I was totally disowned, we were a very close family, and pray that one day,
they will show some interest in my life. Ive had many unpredictable things happen to me over the years, And I'm on my third long term relationship, so I hope that Paul's the right one, I am terribly in
love, but he first acted different when we met, and now does not know what he wants. middle age crisis I think? But anyway I love him, and will do anything for him. But my point is, that gay people, must
be better, If they know how to have someone in their life, and some of us are working to prove that its no different than a straight couple trying to make it. and I stand my ground when it comes to
equality, no one can get past me when it comes to this subject. Believe me I have been more of a woman, to the men that were in my life, than some real women i know. But my true theory about gay society
is that we are at one time, both having male and female gender. And somehow it changed, and somewhere in our genetic makeup, this thought pattern still exsists. And this is coming into this time,perhaps
population control, Or maybe because its so much damn fun to be gay,or I like to say a free spirit. I do feel though that gay people need to really look at the big picture, I feel that we have to help
each other, in a more brotherly love type thing. Even though sex is great, its well into over kill, I mean the best sex that I ever had was when I was I in love. Whenever we had intercourse, we came
exactly at the same time, and this happened for a long time. for me it justified our love. Any way I could keep going, but its time to make dinner for my guy, just felt like connecting to you Boyz. And
remember, its not what you can see with your eyes, but its also what your soul sees, there is a soul that comes with the body, and its here to help us now, not when we're six feet
under.
LOVE: Robert.
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