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Well...I know a few Senior level people..Brad and Dan. We have become best friends for life. Noting would ever get in the way of our friendship! So, in early December, They
invited me to a college party..and course knowing me I was going to say YES! So in fact I did end up saying yes..and before I knew it we (Dan,Brad, and I) were on our way to Clemson High I forget the
name of the school.. The ride up there was long and tiring, I fell asleep several times and had numerous dreams about Brad and Dan. Well as 5 hrs or so passed by we arrived at our destination, no not
Clemson but Wal*Mart..for some goodies for the party.
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...and as soon as I get up he feels the need to call me cocksucker
and a fag and shove me down
again.
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Dan saw a knife as soon as we got in the store..grabbed it and said we might need this at the party tonight. As we were browsing through the store you can only guess that people would
be there wanting to bring my high ego down. As soon as I left Dan and Brad you can only guess what went on...DRAMA( that is a teen term for fighting/bullshit)!!!!! This 6'3" body
built jock "accidentally" crashes into me knocking all of my food and drinks out of my hand. He says not sorry and as soon as I get up he feels the need to call me cocksucker and
a fag and shove me down again. People in the store see this but since I am a gay they could care less. Luckily Dan see's the incident and he
tells me that the jocks name is Tyler. Don't get em wrong I didn't mind Tyler( one of the sexiest guys I ever saw) running into me so I can get
a smell of his surplus body but the fag word I couldn't take. Dan said he would be at the party so I hope he wouldn't be there. As we
checked out of the store and bagged all of our numerous groceries in the car..low and behold we saw Tyler.. We after a good few harsh words i started to break down and cry. Tyler left after he saw he had
shattered my resistance and my ego. Dan and or Brad couldn't stop me...I Had been teased my whole entire life and now i was going to end
the teasing. So vigorously I ripped open the knife package got a knife and was about two seconds away from Killing myself..Brad shoved me
on the concrete which forced me to drop the knife. Brad picked up the knife tossed it to Dan and Brad went off on me..the whole 30 min. to
the high school. You can pretty much guess what it was about...well in case you cant guess..Why I shouldn't kill myself in public or at all.
We arrived at the high school. The music was blasting and we were all ready to go party our ass off!!!! Well half way through the thing Brad
and Dan kinda go on their own..well bad mistake. Here comes Tyler..perfect body sexy ass Tyler rolling into the party with his two best Friends. After having a few beers and Hawaiian punch I was ready to
explode. I walk to the bathroom in a rather sly way, hoping Tyler and his companions don't see me and decide to pay me a visit! I have the
worst timing in the world..there stands Tyler and one of his fellow friends. The other is not to be seen. I spoke too soon.. I heard big
footsteps behind me and then..I was pushed into the bathroom and Tyler and his other friend held me down while the third friend sealed
the door with so much masking tape..I think it was 6 rolls of tape..So I was like there is no way of getting out. Well with the two friends hold
me down on my knees and Tyler pulls out a pocket knife. Tyler says word for word," I know that your a fag..If you don't gimme some of
your oral abilities...I will kill you...Well I thought he was bluffing but after he left a nice scar on my stomach..i gave him oral..the best i could
give.. But before I go any further sucking Tyler's big was probably a miracle..but not in a forced way.. So before I know it I have to give the
other two guys head too. GREAT! How wonderful..in a sarcastic way I pondered to myself.....
After getting all of the duck tape off the door low and behold Brad is
there. Brad is one of the biggest and strongest guys you can ever meet in your life. But since Brad is gay he didn't fight Tyler or his puny
friends. To end the story Tyler and his two friends were suspended one day before they had to graduate....hahaha.....But my ending isn't
happy...After that cracked my head open on stall in the bathroom..it hurt..but i had felt like I had been used and that I always will be used
and unloved. So I still have two scars one on my head which needed 7 stitches and my hand which needed one.
I have never told my parents bout this..they hate me for even being
gay so...denial is what I live with everyday! The point is never give up on yourself...It is painful and if you don't go through with it you have a
scar or a heavy load of pain on yourself and in your heart. I haven't attempted to kill myself since December and I have to thank that to
your Website Chad and my best friends... I hope my story meant anything to you young lings who are in the opposition of killing yourself.
Love you all, Jamie AKA: JaMeStEr
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