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Brad is from Colorado, USA
I am 14, I like acting, movies, and
music, and I am half way
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"I have made several stupid choices in my life but never as bad as the night I
almost took my own
life."
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through
9th grade. I am also gay. I realized this when I was in 5th grade and my friend Tyler and I started to fool around a little, I remember thinking this is cool and just as were are not
kissing it is completely straight. Well, we started to kiss. After we went our separate ways I found myself depressed and lonely. When I went into 7th grade I started picking on
kids that I said were "fags" in a desperate attempt to cover my homosexuality. At the end of 7th grade my dad caught me looking at a shirtless picture of Tom Cruise. When my
mother asked me if I had a boyfriend I went on a mad rampage. I barracked myself in my room and decided that I was going to commit suicide. I got out my BB gun and then I
started wondering if it would hurt so I pumped it up at least 20 times pointed it at my foot and pulled the trigger. At the very instant a royal red color came out of my foot. My
parents took me in and I went in surgery to remove it.
I stayed in the closet until In the summer before 9th grade I came out to my girlfriend she excepted me completely
(being BI herself). With this self esteem boost when I changed schools for the 9th grade year. I then decided that I was just going to be who I was. So far every person
who knows (which I am sure a lot of people do because I am very feminine) that I am gay supports me fully. I have never talked to my parents further about the issue and I
don't even think they know. I am now at a point in my life that I never thought I would be at, even though I don't have that special someone I am loving life. I have made
several stupid choices in my life but never as bad as the night I almost took my own life. I hope that someone who reads this found it help full. |
